THE HEART WAS SEEING

Love…
Were you there before I knew your name?

I was four years old
Standing in the summer fields
The air was thick and holding the sweet scent of long grass and roses

Holding nothing
Knowing nothing

And still…
Something called me
From within
From above

Yes, little one
I was already there
Waiting for you
Holding you

In the tall grass
In the sweetness of the air
In the humming of the insects
In the ache inside your wondering

I was calling you dear one, dear one, dear one

Why did the woods feel alive?
Why did the light feel like music?
Why did my chest beat so loudly?

Why did I feel like the whole world
Was breathing through me?

Because your heart was opening, opening, opening
Because you stopped long enough to listen
Listen! Listen!

Because children sometimes remember
What adults spend lifetimes trying to recover

I climbed through the fence
I wasn’t supposed to go there

Every soul must cross the threshold

The threshold of love!!

The flowers were exploding from the earth
The cows sounded like giants
The sunlight fell through the trees like gold

And then—
Something happened

Something opened at the top of my head

I started laughing
I couldn’t stop laughing

You touched the living field

What was it?

Relation

All my Relations?

The feeling that nothing was separate
The knowing that life was alive together

The forest
The insects
The cows
The stones
The child
The sunlight

One breathing body

I remember my heart pounding

Slow… deep… powerful
Like it was speaking

Boom Boom Boom!

It was, it was …magical

And suddenly
I could see from somewhere else

Not from my eyes

The heart was seeing
My heart was seeing…

Love. Light. Freedom!

Yes!

I’ve carried that moment my whole life

Even when I doubted it
Even when the world became loud
Even when grief entered

Even when people told me
“It was only a dream”
“It couldn’t be”

And what do you believe?

I believe it happened
Even if it happened inside the soul
Then it happened

Was that the moment you took hold of me?

No, I was already growing inside you

But that was the moment
You noticed, you noticed

Why me?
Why there?
Why so young?

Because your heart was listening
The heart was listening!

Because the world was still enchanted to you
Because before fear becomes structure
Love can still enter whole

Did that moment make me an artist?

It made you a witness
a witness to love

Art came later
Words came later
Songs came later

First came wonder
First came wonder

And all these years later…
After heartbreak
After death
After loneliness
After all the noise of the world…

Why does that meadow still burn inside me?

Because real love leaves radiant traces

Radiant Love! Radiant Love!

Because some moments are not memories
They are openings
Into the Universe of Love!

Because the child on the boulder
Never stopped listening

Sometimes I still feel him there!

Laughing among the cowbells
The cathedral of trees
Watching sunlight pour through the leaves

Love inside me, Love all around me

Love is there
Love is here

And so am I
I and I!

Love…
Was that you I felt
Rising through the top of my head
Into the sky?

Yes dear!

And what are you now?

Still becoming you dear

Then stay with me!

I never left dear
I was always here

My heart was seeing the love in me, the love in you

Yes dear one

And it still is

it still is.